INNER MOVEMENT

Solo Exhibition At atelier K84 - July 12, 2024, through September 7, 2024 - Keizersgracht 84 - Amsterdam

'Inner Movement' is the overarching title of the work I've completed over the past years 2023/2024, my graduation project 'Where the spirit meets the bone’, as well as new projects still in progress.

The focus of my practice lies in delving into aspects of the human psyche, and making emotions, for which we often lack words, visible. Movement is an essential element of my photography and is necessary to capture these emotions, but is not the goal itself.

Many of the images revolve around a deep-seated fear of disappearing, not being seen, or being consumed. Through this, I explore my own experiences with a panic disorder that has played a significant role in my life since 2017.

The stories that emerge are raw and personal, yet at the same time universal and recognisable. I invite the audience to recognise themselves in the work, where both the subject and the environment reflect the inner movement of our deepest emotions.

The new projects, some of which I will exhibit, are still in development and an extension of my earlier work.

IN SEARCH OF NIJINSKY

In ‘In Search of Nijinsky’ (working title), I use the Kiev-born dancer Vaslav Nijinsky (born 1889) as a starting point. Fascinated by this man, I strive to embody his essence. He is considered the greatest dancer of the early 20th century, celebrated for his extraordinary skills and theprofound, intense way he in which he portrayed characters. He also stirred controversy and was daringly innovative in his movements, a true pioneer of contemporary dance. He danced to express himself.

What captivates me the most are his diaries, written in 1919 just before being diagnosed with schizophrenia and being admitted to a psychiatric hospital. The texts seem to have poured directly from his pen, his thoughts tumbling over each other. It’s as if what he used to express through dance was now captured in his writing.

I feel a deep connection with him, possibly because I, too, am always searching for ways to express myself and to be recognised. I seek to understand what was happening psychologically from the time of his admission until his death. His life after dance. Was movement still his language in his mind? I try to visualise his thoughts, his frustration, and fear—something I can very much relate to and strive to understand.

TREADING WATER

‘Treading Water’ (working title) is part of another series featured in the exhibition. It depicts the overwhelming wave of chaos and storm in the mind that one can experience during a panic attack. Through this piece, I explore my own experiences with panic disorder, which has played a significant role in my life since 2017.

This exhibition has been made possible and curated by: Atelier K84, Maurice Laudy, and Cees van Beuzekom.